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these days i'm very down, being scold and i've cried, i duno what means by management and i dun like it, last sat fire-fight for nearly 18 hrs, first time to do it and the solution is explored by ourself, lucky now have gd collegues to ask and a senior to accompany me to think and do it together...today reading the dairy of my colleagues, long time haven't do it, read a comment of last yr...same question again, why others can but i can't, in others eyes, i'm pretending pak chi and stupid, waste time to work on meaningless tasks, i just want to take a break and let the things be simple, there's no wrong~ when getting older, then need to act old? um...
i've think of changing job again, change to developer to change the environment? change field and start things again? wanna go back to a simple world~ i miss my manager and some colleagues, they are really nice, like to work and play with them~ after my X'mas trip will think this things seriously again...afraid these days too tired and affect my decision~
or like my colleague said, find a guy to pak tall, focus less on work...yes gei, now i date fds after work, nearly late for all gathering...but last year really being hurt too deep, i afraid to start a relationship...TIME management, what a difficult subject!!!